I feel like i need a little break, for the mess of my life.
Honest saying, I hate my Ex, deeply, even if i really don't want to remember anything about him.
I couldn't stop thinking about the whole mess that started from the spring 4 years ago.
If I could ever get a chance to start over, I wish I had chosen not to be with him.
Even if i don't like regrets, but this time, I really do. I guess that's why i'm digging into it, and couldn't move on.
I hate him not because he brought me here, but he completely changed my view of love and relationship.
It makes me hard to trust somebody else, and stuck in the new relationship because I'm afraid to bet on it again.
I know it's unfair to the person I love at this moment, but I just couldn't stop thinking in this way.
Hate myself like this. Feel completely lost. And have no idea what i'm going to do.
Han, I do love you, and I do trust you.
i know i'm messing up our life right now, but i just need a little bit time to somehow adjust myself & keep going.
